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My new wretch acc , i’m damn pissed right now , Fuckup .

Anyway , will be leaving this blog aside for timebeing.

Perhaps using it  for online blog shop .

FUCKKKKKKKKKK LA , CURSE YOU

To those who’se already linked me !
Im sorry , cause i really dont LOIKE wordpress.com.
Its NOT user-friendly and most importantly ….
It doesnt support edition on the themes , and doesnt have much pretty designs too .
It affects me alot , cause that makes me wna STOP blogging on this ugly blog with no nice layouts!

I’m still busy with wretch.com
I’ve used it previously , long time readers will know.
I’ve used it when i was in sec2? or 3?
Haha I like it alot , but its all in chinese Y.Y

Like you know ,im no longer taking mother tongue , SO YA ! one stone two birds la.
Can brush up what T,T

whatever , third post today.

Eyyyy , i copied this entire passage from iris’s blog.
Speaks out my thoughts totally! I was nodding my head profusely like an idiot when i was reading.
Sianzation.

Mum made my dental appointment alrd.
I is vehly excited la kekex.

Haha , sudden twitxxz wind la hor.
Anyway , i’m quite anxious abt it too . Think the pain of extracting chu healthy tooth/teeth .
Tooth or teeth ? I said two , so which ? AH ,

I is vehly not happy now.
(Using the I-is kinda thing is on purpose ok.)
Idk , i’m getting wierdddddd . Doing all the stuffs i never did before. HAAH!

Im watching he’s just not that into you tonight, with whom to be left in suspense ah.
Curious sibo ?

And Im really feeling kinda irked by some unknown people , whom I DIDNT ADD , who’se NOT in my msn list , speaking to me !
It a kinda virous or something that kind you know.
Then it’ll you , ” fantasied(is there such word?) seeing my naked?” or ” ‘ve a growing lust?”

Ya dah yadah , i is no horny babiesxz ok.
Idk how to make that thing stop pestering.
Y,Y

oK , so-li-la . random twit post now.

And my cheeks literally COLLIDED with samantha’s head today.
Ok , exaggerated . We banged onto each other.
Its or cheh ( blue black) now ):

My cheeks T.T hope her head’s alright now.

School’s been fun ! Hectic otherwise.
I’m managing well in terms of studyin ~
Vectors , moles , argumentative essays , folio for d&t .

Song ji sei ah ! -.-
Random shit today . Ok , gtg ,i got chicken chop for lunch ok .

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To hanee nadia :
Im really touched to see your post !
I was just tearing for a moment , untill i saw what you wrote.
Seriously , seriously !
Im grateful to still see you standing right beside me , still there for me when everyone else is turning their back on me .
Thanks for really being there for me , really .
Thankyou hunnehneh :’D
Thank you so much for being here for me .
I understand you’ve your thangs to handle , i’m alright~ Really!
By reading what you’ve wrote , i’m twice as stronger alrd .

Nothings gna pull spongebob down so easily, ok !
W loves , no , tons and tons of loves.

I came back to sec5 to study for my own’s sake.
What mommykins said was right , really right.
I aint gna let anything effect my mood so easily .
Nothingggggs gna pull me down yo

Endure for a few more months and i’ve be freeeee as a bird!

I really reall tried to attempt to make things better!
But everything came to a void now.
Its ok , like what k said, leave things the way they are . It’ll help more then trying to .

Wow , having issues to make me upset really helps to see who really cares huh?
I was having sore eyes and sis came over to talk to me.
She mentioned she also had issues like this when she was in sec4.
She was devastated at that point of time . Having recess alone , sitting in class alone and walking home alone everyday.
But as time goes by , she also began to see how things really worked.

A piece of advice from her that i was told to remember all the time.
” Those who really cared for you , will go over to you , you just have to stay put . It might hurt , but you’ll see what im trying to let you know after some time , you’ll see . You’ve to stay strong!”

She gradually gotten her real friends around her , and now , still hanging and lovin em so much !

I cried like shit , and really wanted to give loveysis a huge bear hug.
I’ve always been a mean sister , playing pranks on her when i was young.
Ohmy , i hope it isnt too late to love you right.

Mum also added , im always so straight in expressing my feelings.
My mouth always react faster then my mind , so i speak without being able to use my brain first.
Haha! So true ! Thats why i always endup saying the wrong stuffs i dont mean T.T
SO TRUEEEE. LOL.

At least i’ve seen who’se true or who’se not.
Who tried and who didnt.
A friend in need , a friend indeed.

When god take away something from you, they’ll give you something in return.
I vouch for that.

God gave me them when i lost him.
Now that i’ve lost them , i believe something is on its way.
Perhaps something its held up , thus , its a lil late.

No matter what , stay optimistic lijuan.
Smile , be it true or not. Dont let your trueself out so easily anymore momo :’)
Cause you’ve learnt a thing from em , being happy brings along happier things. yes?
I’d wait , i’d wait . I’d wait like a faithful wife , i’d wait.

i promised to be good , i promised to be true.
But no one said its gna be so painful.

So first and foremost , WHEN THE FUCK I TOLD OTHERS YOU’RE BLAMING ON ME.
Get em out , i’d talk to them .
I DIDNT FUCKING TELL ANYONE YOU’RE BLAMING ME.

And how bout you ? A matter between us 3 , why has so many people got to know abt it ?
Who’se telling and who’se not ?

And WTF did i do for the past few months , WHICH PAST FEW MONTHS HUH ?

And about blaming you for neglecting , IT WAS ONLY FOR THAT FRIDAY.
I preach what i get ? For which do you mean ? Be specific . For TALKING TO YOU, you mean?
You mean i deserve to be neglected , for trying to listen and join in abt facial stuffs too?
Wow . SO im supposed to SHUT MY MOUTH CAUSE IT IRRITATES YOU TO TALK ABOUT SOMETHING ABOUT COMPLEXION STUFFS THAT I OUGHT TO LEARN?

I whined , i whined , i whined SOOOOO MUCH .
You CAN say this to me , ONLY UNLESS YOU DIDNT WHINE TOO .
I shant say much about this , you know if you did OR NOT.

Oh , you’re asking What do you GET , but think , and what do i get in return too ?
Huh ?

Practice what you PREACH infact.
Didnt i lend you my listening ear too ? Did i turn away or keep quiet when YOU did what i did?!
IF I DID , BRING A HAMMER TO SCHOOL TMR , CAUSE THATS THE ONLY THING THAT’LL WAKE ME UP.
NO , BLOGGING ON BLOG DOESNT.

And this is classic .

“Those attitude that you showed to us really makes it feel so irritated . Are you treating us as your spare tyre .
Is having a friend to you is a want or a need ?”
Extracted and credited to author .

What attitude you mean ?
Bad temper ?I ADMIT on my own accord , i do have a VERY bad temper.
I flare up easily , but thats ONLY FOR A REASON WHY.
And i know my temper better then anyone of you.
I dont do it cause i’m ANGRY , i do it , cause i’m HURT.
Hurt deep inside by the unexpectant.

I treated you like a sparetyre?
Hhm , then who’se my currently used tyre?
Aren’t you ? Is this being named as spare tyre?
If i were to be asked to name out my best friends for now , you think i’d give your names a miss ?
Definately no . But ask yourself , if you were to be asked the SAME questions , would mine be ?

Thats cause i sincerely treating you like a best friend , but you didnt.
You really didnt , and its shown.
Cause you already had your BEST FRIEND vacancies occupied .
So no matter how hard i try , whats the point?

My thoughts on if having a friend is a want or a need?
Its a WANT. Cause i’m being taught this that …
Nobody needs nobody to live . Its a matter of being happy OR NOT.

Maybe i’ve lived my life with a different expectations , a different way of thinking with ya’ll .

Didnt she whined too ? Didnt she complain abt her life ?
Its just that i’m doing it in a different way , so why am i blamed for that ?
I see no justice here.

Look , its because you’ve known each other well , for a long number of years.
Accepting each other’s flaws and virtual points .
If im being classified under this kinda category WHEN its because you dont know me enough , then forget it . I got nothing to rebutt about that .

My difference of want and need.
Having a friend , is about being with me , understanding , lovin , concerning , caring , and be there for me .
No matter how much if signifies to me , its still a want.
Ive got to agree with what you said then .
Cause again , nobody needs nobody to live.

Need , in turn , means something i’d die to be without.
And i do NOT have a choice to choose.
Its air , water , food , money and shelter.

Does friend drops under this ? Needs or wants?

I want a best friend , and i need a best friend.
Yes , i want a best friend , not need.

Different opinions , maybe ? It spells how much you’ve not known abt me.
But anyway , how much can we know each other after a mere of … 1 year perhaps?
SO WHY AM I BEING COMPARED WITH SOMEONE YOU’VE KNOWN FOR MORE THEN 5 YEARS?!

So i’d say , sorry , you werent right abt that . Really . really . really .

Have i ever thought abt your feelings?
Or else , who’se feelings would i bother about?
A passer-by? A pedestrain ? A random school mate buying from the same kuey tiao store?
When i felt our friendship were on th rocks , i even tried to find secrets to share so we’ll keep close.
Im risking my friendship with others to save ours.

Some tiny things you’ve been doing … Im trying to guess that thought you’ve going inside your minds.
So i wouldnt be left out. Cause i’ve already lost to the amount of time you both spent together.
The only thing i could add up to , its effort .

Mel mentioned i didnt trust you enough .
I didnt understand that term of trust , really.
I seekd for the answer around .
Because deep inside , i trusted both of you ,to the max.
I’ve confided everything EVERYTHING I HAD already.
There’s nothing about me you wouldnt know. To me , i’ve already trusted you.

HOW about the other way round?
When was it you’ve considered about my feelings?
When both of you telling each other you’re her bff , and leaving me aside?
I know , you’ve been best friends since YEARS ago . And nothing , NOTHING NOTHING i could do to match up to that.
Think abt that.

Are you judging me like how you think abt her , your friend very such a long time?
Or are you judging me on how much i should deserve?
Are you comparing how much i should comprehend to you , how much i understand you , with someone you’ve known for yearsss ?

We’ve merely knew each other , so no point matching a friend you’ve known and had for years with me.
Cause no matter how good i am , i’d nv be half as good as her., right ?

Just like what she said sometime ago.
She have tried her best , but she thinks she’ll never be as close as weifang’s to me.
Vice-versa . Put me in your shoes.
I;ve tried too , too too .
But i;d never be as close as she’s to you.

Not to mention , i know my flaws too .
Not only you , NOT ONLY YOU,.
i see these flaws in myself too .
I depise , i hate , i really find myself revolting for this changes in me.
But there’s nothing i could do . I tried , i tried , i really tried.

Just like your last sentence in your post.
NOBODY IS PERFECT IN THIS WORLD , SO STOP IT (? let me get to this ltr)

Am i judged on a comparison of a PERFECT FRIEND?
See > again , practise what you preach.

I’ve always made this mistake , that i never fail to pick out others flaws , but missed out on my own.
Now that i’ve seen it , have you ?

Whats this abt ? 2 against 1 ? Oh no , 20 against 1 ?

And stop it , stop what ?
Stop being myself ? Stop being late ? Stop whining ? Stop blogging ? Stop thinking abt ur feelings ?!>?!

I’m puzzled , really puzzled.
By your last sentence , i’ve ought to wake up huh?
I did , i already did .
And if you’re sucha person to say this , i’m truly disappointed .
Cause you’re telling me off , when you’re not reflecting too .

Cause that post is futile , its useless.
Like , YOU MADE IT SOUND LIKE I’M TOTALLY IN THE WRONG.

OKOKOK OKOKOKKKKK ,even if i am ,
I deserved i chance to change , THAT POST , IS PUSHING ME TILL TH END ALRD.
After reading that post , fine , i get it.
You’re trying to mean , ” OH , THATS THE END . JUST SCRAM “

If thats so , say it to the face.
Tell me how much you dont need my effort , my time , and my love for you.
I’d jolly well spare it for others , fine enough.

Think about this again.

“Are you comparing me to someone you’ve known for YEARS , or someone you truly know me as?”
You’ll understand what i’m hurt about.

And so , if you still treat me like a FRIEND , go as you wish , stay as you wish.
i wont probe or mention a word anymore .
Cause it irritates you right ? Cause my speakings=whinings right ?
Oh yea yea ….

Dangerous people .

IF YOU’RE SO GNA GET ANGRY OR PISSED WITH WHAT I’VE SAID/
then read what you’ve posted against what i’ve did.
Who’se suffering more ?

Anw , the mistake i’ve seen in me which i’d never be able to change is that i always use the wrong word the describe my emotions.
Maybe you dont get the exact meaning i’m trying to phrase , but guess it wouldnt matter to you too ,anymore.

I just wna thank you .
For trying to make me a better person.
I know i’ve never been like this , i’m sorry for the change.
Thankyou .

And oh shit , i dont need a replica!
I definately wouldnt need someone to stick to the same hairdo , or anything else like mine !
Im sorry but really , its unnecessary.
Stick to your old do and yea, you know , you get it ‘

Beth & Carina said She looked totally like mua mua muaaaaaaaa on the behind.
You know , MANES MANES MANESSS …. ITS MY MANESSSS .
Zomg . The only thing i admire about her ? Extreme high self esteem maybe -,-

I WOULD mind having a twin , seriously. (Take note , i said i WOULD mind)
There should only be one Momo in the world rightey , my dear?
Oh my , my prattling is eventually making my attempt to make things sound good , worst T.T

Shit , actually i’m enraged inside t.t
Im fuming cause its my vital point lor , HEAD SHOT.

Now , it shows a person’s true colour.
I dont understand , i’ve thought through , and i didnt do anything wrong!
Like , …. WTF do i deserve to be condemned like this?!
Oh yea , deeply appreciated.

Mommykins said fair weather friends come and go.
True friends are those who goes through all ups & downs w ya .
Once this wave is through , we’ll see who’se real and who’se not.
I’m tired like the way you’re . not just you.

So this is what you meant by not pretending and be cool ?
I see and get it now.

People around me now , turns up to be a huge surprise.
Someone i didnt expect to be there for me , to be understanding . Rather shocked.

Anw , you arent even bothered , i guess i shouldnt . Thats what you want ? give it to you .

And i’m sick , down with flur and heavy head. Skipped act to go to thy doctor and i’ve 2 days mc.
Dont bother rejoicing , i’d still be in school .

And yea , another happier note for you.
I’m about to ask ms.lee to change my seat, Hope that makes things better for you , instead of pretending not to see me . right?

To lose a friend , is worst then losing a lover.
We couldnt click no matter what.
Gone were those good times .
I think i’d be having recess alone from today onwards , im fine with that i think.

Friendships may not last. Friendships can lose importance and die gradually. Some friendships end abruptly with unresolved conflict. The worst enemy of friendships is change by one or both friends. There is usually pain with the loss of friendship.

Im sorry if i hurt you in some way or another.
Im terribly sorry for the times i’ve turned berserk by throwing tantrums.
I’ve never been your good friend , i’d never be able to be one .

Within a span of shorter then a year , i’ve lost someone i’ve loved so much , and my best friend(s).
I’m suffering alot deep within , yet no one bothers or understands.
There’s so much time when i wanted to quit life and just vanish.
Go to a place where no one recognise me , and start life all over again.

It still pains me alot , in fact , more .
To see auto back with his ex girlfriend , proving much more that he never loved me , was cheating on me , was making use of me and my love , and he cant even be bothered about a single shit about me.
I know i’m wasting and shedding useless tears cause he wont even cringe.

Im dying inside ,really.
Who’se there to listen ? Who’se there to understand?
He begs me not to do certain stuffs as it’ll hurt her , i did.
And now she’s doing all to me , yet not a word from you.

I told him abt the misery im going through.
He bothers about no shit , and i think i’ve gradually became his burden.
Im sorry , im sorry for coming into your life .

I’m sorry to everyone perhaps.

Mum doesnt understand and says i’m stupid for still holding onto him.
I want to let it all out so urgently but i cant cause she’s gna get really aggravated.

CAN SOMEONE GET GOD TOSTOP MAKING PEOPLE I LOVE TO HURT ME?
Im just as vulnerable as any single soul out there!
I give up if you’re testing on how tough i could be.
I surrender . so please let me off . ….

I’m dying …
Will anyone even grieve if i’m gone?

It’ll make no different i guess.